Sunday, December 21, 2008

ohkay, like I promised, here's the explanation:

today had been a very emo day... (breeeeaaak.... eeeek, tire screeching) wait!! First, here are some pics to show the mood...

(I reccomend you play OneRepublic-Mercy/ Cai Hung-Jay Chow at the side bar)

I felt heartache...

Felt cheap...

Felt broken..

Felt thrown away.....

I guess I just awoke on the wrong side of the bed today...
it was late,(1.30pm) and it was a busy day ahead...

everything was so

hectic, jumbled up schedules,

(this was due to bad time management from the previous week)

stressing, uncompleted assignments,

(our project had little heading through the discussion)

emotional, quarreled with some of my family members,

(was quite a big one)

it was because of me..

then

I had 4 appointments happening at the same time O.O

so a decision had to be made...

I'm sorry guys for letting you down :( it was my bad...

fast forward 7 hours...

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I'm here

finally managed to get everything settled, glad everything worked out well...

we managed to go sight seeing at a number of places in town..

including a Christmas parade by the churches in Kuching,

mei, that was why I was quiet just now

(had a few things to contemplate)

:)

now, here is the interesting part of it all..
home finally came again, it was all normal routine...

but today, someone, I'll nickname him 'CD' got me to 'confess'... yesh '''confess'''

I don't usually break so easily but this time it was all spontaneous..

maybe it was because of today's happenings

the words came out without end...

It was so.... nerve wrenching.... it was like my throat was so heavy I could not speak

(fortunately my hands did the talking)

'CD' was particularly close with a girl I fancy

it was about her, so you could imagine my dilemma

he questioned my

truthfulness

loyalty

trust

and finally..

my heart

did not feel like the end was anywhere near, the answers were so far

but in the end...

..I got it right..

O.O

well we exchanged problems, he on the other hand had quite a ways to go..

I truly wish him all the best..

after today.. I've found a new brother to confide in

and after that, I came online and I found your lovely comments,

****now for the stars****

~Alan~

~Meimei~

~Mellow~

~ Ash~

~Steff~

~Wanie~

even though it was small talk

was really enlightening ^^

thanks for making my day :)

sometimes you can't avoid the storm that lies ahead

.....

but do not waiver because sometimes you only need to hold on long enough

to see the beautiful day ahead

~~ smiles ~~
... (: together lets :) ...

thanks for reading~! ^^