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2009-03-18T02:14:00.008+08:00

playing another poem

are you crying alone..?

well.. written in our colours [ps- please read slowly ; ) ]

I don't have an answer...

why we act this way..

nor.. do I have the power..

:to change what people say..

lets just sit, be still.. and wonder,

how all this could change..

with just 3 words,

:turn blue skies from grey..

you know how people pray..

that they would find someday..

the one they could cherish..

:chase all their fears away..

:for us, that day is already today..

don’t hear what people say..

because for you, "yesterday, today, tomorrow.."

"yours, mine or ours",

I know I have the person..

For which I pray..
..Amen..

pretty isn't it?

now.... (: smile :)

2009-03-06T18:55:00.011+08:00

http://onlinemagazine.childrensdiscovery.org.uk/__oneclick_uploads/2007/08/morgan_roar.jpg

RoAr!!... juz lost my second phone yesterday while in spring (don't ask)..

(answer) again due to carelessness oh well

was planing to get a new phone end of this month..

but that does not mean I have no regard for the previous phone buhuhu.. all the pics and 'stuffs' in there waaa! dang I'm mad... ( goes and yells into the pillow)

okay I'm cool liaw.. hm.. guess I'll just put up what a 'holiday day' day is like for me..

not accounting for dinner and church seminar later today

I'm sure all of us are busy people, thought I'd just post this up to let you guys know what I'm up to XD

tomorrows events:

wake up at 8am.. gua.. sure oversleep again XD

breakfast-

badminton in the morning-

lunch out-

(15 mins nap)

gym in the afternoon 2pm-

bible study 4pm-

then dinner in town with some of our Singaporean friends 7pm-

maybe go survey for a new phone? till 10 gua-

typing for my mom at night till 12 gua-

sleep la what else 12++am-

wooola! now time for some photos!

oh wait.. photos I collected for bloggie all gone liaw... oh well..

here are some pics of what we watched till 3am yesterday

Its about a group of extraordinary individuals, and the plot is set during the midst of the cold war between the U.S.A and the USSR.. plot's twisted and unpredictable lol

I give it a 8 outa 10, though those who like alot of action packed movies should not opt to watch this movie.. it's for a more.. mature kinda audience, know what I mean?

(mature as in make you think, not the other meaning of mature XD)

laaaa... cheesy and cool at the same time :P

My fav character in this movie, Rorscharch

the typical accident that turns someone into 'super' man

kneel before the dude in blue!!
(vietkongs surrendering during the US-vietnam war)
^
fiction

Rorscharch again!

okays thats it for this short post, catch ya later and thanks for dropping by yeah :)

2009-02-21T23:48:00.007+08:00

kukkroooo... gimme space you two! XD

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, tag 5 people off your friends list. You also have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

here goes:~

1: I got tagged.. I got tagged? Huh?... I.. got tagged??!! I GOT TAGGED!!!! O.O >> fact

2: this blog has been dead for almost 3 weeks now >> fact

3: :).. ohkay.. wah!.. O.O.. wow!.. XD.. :P.. XP.. wooot!..are the expressions I most commonly use

4: I prefer.. vanilla,white non brownish, vanilla...white chocolate over chocolate :P

5: I have one ‘dry=gan=angkat’ brother (Eldellan) and one ‘dry=gan=angkat’ sister (Melissa)..
Malvin.. he’s more like Masao the uncle LOL.. if I forgot any one of you.. come stab my back
with a cone of vanilla-oreo ice cream, I’d gladly appreciate it hahak! XD >> fact, (I’m hungry
what can I say? oo.. someones coming to stab me liaw hahak)

6. the 'somebody' who tagged the 'someone' who tagged me is my sister >> fact

7. ooo..! something under th… wah itchy.. but.. it.. feels soooo good… aa..aahh…. >> thing

Under the table.. scratching my feet la.. ish >> nonsense
..eh wait.. (scratch scratch) okay it’s now a fact >> fact..

all the above for no.7 >>wulaio

8. Oh mee gosh!... I just came back from a barbeque party.. and… I just noticed (after looking
down 5 seconds ago)… my zipper was opened the whole time X.x.. >> truth..
fortunately I wasn’t wearing baby green undies >> lie.. hahak

9. I like playing my guitar.. >> habit

10. I aim.. to gain 10 kilograms this year >> goal

11. I visit Iso hamsterin’s blog almost everyday! >> stalker
(happily am one, lalalala, run hamster!.. run!.... tadaa.. you lost another 0.0001 kg.. see, li hai
leh) >> haolian

12. Used to watch 5 hours of T.v everyday (c.s.i, house, las vegas, full house..) now I almost
never watch.. >> truth

13. I sometimes bully my younger brother.. >> naughty

14. I told memel I would post a pic of my braces up on this blog, but truth is.. I snaped one and it

looked.. lets just say I’ll make babies cry.. >> so true

15. I’ve reared chikens, ducks, fishies, tortoises, turtles, birds, cats, dogs, snails, ants, caterpillars,
hamsters and rats.. note the 'word= Used to' what happen to them? they've gone to a much
happier place.. :'(

16. I once had 4 hamsters.. one slept and never woke up, one got lost somewhere around the
house, and 2 devised an escape plan and outsmarted me.... hey! I was "'6, 7.. maybe 9..'"

>> can almost be considered a fact, except for "'sentence'"

17. I’m trying to reduce the size of my ass through exercise >> goal

18. I sing loudly in the bathroom >> habit (so loud that sometimes.. well.. actually a lot of times,
my neighbors laugh when I go off tune XD)

20. I soooo can’t wait for the next semester to start again! >> so not true

21. want to start learning engineering math before next sem starts.. >> goal

21. carrots, broccolis, ladies fingers.. my favourite veggies! >> habit/fact

22. I used to be afraid of the dark.. so I secretly sneak into my dad and mom's room at night
>>think for yourself whether this is true or not XD

23. I thought today was Sunday.. >> truth, it’s still Friday..

24. How am I gona end this.. hm..... I know!
I have..
2 eyes
2 ears
2 feet
2 hands
2 nostrils
2 butt cheeks >> fact

Uh…. Oh!.. did I mentioned I have 2 eyes? XD >> sweat

25. Number 19 was missing >> did you notice? oh and I changed the number 25 somewhere in

this tag.. to only 5 wakakakkaa ^.~

I taaaaaag…. Billy, mandy, Sam, Deborah, Micky…. 5 people... who don’t exist..... fact ;)

hehe :)

aww.. need a hug? 532143.. 61625393 336373 936382~

2009-02-10T10:46:00.006+08:00

Do you realise time passes so fast..

especially when we are enjoying our time..

even more so when we are with good company..

It really helps knowing that when we wake up, it would all still be,

that this is really not all a dream

feel like sitting under a tree and watchin the moon,

in the place only we know..
when we're finally here at the end of the day..
when it's time to say goodbye..

Feel like tying down the clock..

If only that will stop the time

so that fly away it might not..

~lalalalala~

iso hamsterin,

I feel like tying down
every second, every minute, every day

:of the last month + a day:

cinderella by Steven Curtis Chapman, credits to "sarbearlvsya95"

9363827332 6193 ~Cinderella

2009-02-02T20:33:00.014+08:00

Life is a puzzle of entangled hurdles and feelings we each strive to get through

So as we each try to hop through our individual troubles

lets try to make the journey we take a little more pleasant for the others who come by after us

~~~

wiuh.. been sooo long since the last post aiks..

New YeaRs been both crazy and fun.. oh and not to mentioned tiring too

slept whole day for the last two days hekhek

and still Neu YeaR is not over yet till the 15th day! so enjoy enjoy! all you can before we continue the hectic lives we lead once again..

herm.. realised I haven't made a list of 'what to dos' for the next week..

guess I'll just jot some of em down here:

~start working out again ( just registered for gym with iso hamsterin)

~eat eat eat!! (trying to gain lotsa weight here)

~finish up Brsingr, (the third instalation of the Eragorn book series by Christopher Paolini)

~goin for a sleep over (at asheeweys house.. I'm so gona get you for posting up that sleeping

monkey like pic of me XD)

~watch a private movie? (ehehe..he ~lalalalalalala)
~continue aarons tutoring lessons (yesh I'm tutoring my little brother muahahhaha!!)

hope our friends in Miri, Sabah and KL are enjoying themselves! :)

Lets appreciate life, think pass our worries and look to the beautiful days ahead of us :)

2009-01-22T13:49:00.009+08:00

Udstationering dette pic op er lidt girly ..

men jeg vil se dumt

για εσάς ^ ^ μόνο εσείς

From Bjørn to iso hamsterin

It was late evening
the city settled down
I came back to the sound of MUSIC
sad music makes me sad too
It's not that they don't care
or that they are unfeeling
It's cuz they're worried about their baby

Having you here with me is already a dream come through
now I pray that this new dream will come through too..

You found me and I found you..
guess in the end we just found each other :)
though you, only silently sing..
it's enough to make me SMILE every time you play me your.. MUSIC

and yes..
Είμαι δική σου να κατέχει λόγω
אני אקח אותך תמיד במצב הכן
אמן

everything will be fine..
You'll be in my heart
by: Phil Collins

Come stop your cryin' it will be alright
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here, don't you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
This bond between us, can't be broken
I will be here, don't you cry

Why can't they understand the way we feel?
They just don't trust what they can't explain
I know we're different but deep inside us
We're not that different at all

........................line omitted......................
We need each other to have, to hold
They'll see in time. I know
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you got to hold on
They'll see in time. I know
We'll show them together

You'll be in my heart, you'll be in my heart

~Chocolate, Red and Purple~

2009-01-21T01:10:00.007+08:00

To: iso hamsterin,

Can’t be moved, in own ‘script’ :
Cuz if one day you wake up and find that you’re missin me..
And you’re heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be..
Don’t think twice, just give me a call, an sms, you’ll see..
Cuz’ I will do all I can to make that sadness turn to glee..

Maybe the post is meant for someone else but..
Let me perasan a little kay..
Here goes..

~
When the nites are dark, there’s still a light shining on you..
Remember that poem I wrote for ‘iso hamsterin’?
With my little torchlight.. I’d stay up all night so you could sleep..
Let not the bad dreams bother you, I’m here.. hold on..

Wiping the tears away.. tell me what proof would you like..
Whether things will be fine or not.. bear bear will still be there..
Just take his hand.. cuz “on the other side he’s doing the same”
“Don’t make me give you plain water.. you know I will..”

prouver?

Mais .. puis-je compter sur vous pour faire preuve de moi ... ..

Cuz parfois .. Je crains trop ..

........................................From: BjørnBjørn

2009-01-19T18:40:00.007+08:00

....e..e..e..e..e..e....

Fill the letters given above ^

into the spaces provided below v

Choos_ing

m _ _ and h _ r

coz

had to use a pair of chopsticks in the end.. >.<

coz my ~~sweaty~~ hands were
beginnin to melt the smarties.. huhu

you're

melting me heart..

~~lalalalala~~

2009-01-16T13:00:00.006+08:00

I wont blame you if you fall asleep readin this taggie.. it's kinda ~~super~~ long lolz

tell me if you did fall asleep oops..lol jokin

Taggie from MayLinda
I did this tag instead of the one with pics yeah lolz

RANDOM FACTS :

001. Real name:
Joshua.. Paran.. Leong.. Chin.. Kuai..
Yeah kinda long, its cuz I’m mixed blood that’s why..
I think both my grandparents side ‘kiasu’ so they put both native names in,
cantonese and kelabit..
but now I’m suffering whenever I need to fill in forms XD
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002. Nicknames:
Joshy, Jo, and,, pokoyo.. (luke you big chimpan lol)
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003. Married:
nope
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004. Zodiac sign:
Virgo
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005. Male or female:
Boy
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006. Age:
18 +
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007. High school:
smk datuk patinggi haji abdul gapor
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008. College:
Herm.. not really college not really Uni also.. since its still pre-U
Foundation in engineering Swinburne Sarawak
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009. Residence:
’china’
Tabuan Dayak, Lorong 9
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010. Hair color:
very dark brown
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011. Long or short hair:
urm.. both?
Really ba.. not joking
Right side short, left side longer Xp
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012. Smoke:
no.. way
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013. Drink:
wana ask what I drink? I seldom even take coffee much less alcohol..
Allergic to alcoholic contents anyway.. yeah..sad..
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014. Available:
I’m free for the holidays.. lol just jokin.. taken.. lalalala~
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015. Are you a health freak:
I eat whatever and do whatever I consider fun..
so health wise, as long as it’s not life threatening I’ll most likely wana do it.. kua..
Recently eherm.. more conscious on food though..eherm..
And been sleeping waaaaay earlier..
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016. Weight :
70kg is my ideal weight..
current weight.. 56
X.x
So freagin hard to gain weight.. roar..
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017. Do you have a crush?:
no
cuz I’m in 70^3
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018. Do you like yourself:
urm.. ofcourse?
Not to sound hao lian la.. but don’t like yourself how to like others @.@
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019. Piercings:
only holes I have on my body are ones that you already have on yours
oops
No extra.. lol
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020. Tattoos:
erm..I have scars that look like tattoos
^
Tak mahu kalah
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021. Righty or lefty:
righty
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FIRST:

022. First surgery:
never had one.. I think..
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023: First piercing:
not yet

unless you count in needle piercings

which I have had on my ass plenty of times when I was younger
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024. First best friend/s:
You know who you are
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025. First award:
Gold (…plastic) medal in 4 x 100 meters (primary 4)
won Gold (plastic also) in kindergarden but
The gold in primary 4 sounds more impressive so wrote that down lolz
^
Hao lain again oops
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026. First memory:
what sorta question is this?
Don’t think I would like to remember how my mom looked like when I was born..
Would have be scary.. O.O
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027. First pet:
chickens! Which.. sadly got eaten without me even knowing it..
What makes it worst is that.. I’m one of the persons that helped in eating..
XD
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028. First vacation:
when I was few months old.. to my dad’s hometown of Kuala Kangsar
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029. First concert:
only concerts I have attended besides church youth rallies are orchestra concertos
symphonics rock..!
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030. First crush:
primary 5 I guess
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LAST:

031. Last time you went out:
just now.. I just came out into the world.. from my room.. aiks
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032. Last time you had a good time:
Having a good time right now
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033. Last time you cried:
Whoa! You kidding me? Man don’t cry.. and I’m Man!!
..how could you.. ask .. me… this.. sobs… XD
forgotten when.. but I remember why.. lalala~
Next question!!
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034. Last award:
SPM excellence by S'wak Teachers' Union
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035. Last trip abroad:
Brunei.. Traveled there with cousins by car
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036. Last concert:
-.- lazy to type but I’ll type anyway..
Carry the call youth rally..
MPYO if you count in orchestra concertos
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037. Last album you bought:
sad to say.. I download.. I know I know I should support the artist through buying Original products.. planning to get our local band “Yuna’s” cd
last one was Simple Plan..

No Pads, No Helmets...Just Balls

was a long long time ago..

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038. Last song you played:
A song I made for someone, haven’t named it yet though..
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039. Last phone call:
10 mins ago, called Dan, bout today's dinner
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040. Last laugh:
5 mins ago while sms'ing with 'da' hamster

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PICK ONE:
041. Summer or winter:
winter
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042. Rainy or sunny:
sunny
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043. Britney or Christina:
Beyonce (lol thought MayLinDas answer was funny)
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044. TV or YouTube:
Movies XD
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045. Oprah or Tyra:
Oprah ofcourse
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046. McD’s or KFC:
McD!!
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047. Soccer or tennis:
Soccer.. Chelsea lost 3-0 to Man United..
so don’t wana bother with soccer for the next week.. haih.. what in the world happened to them.. haih
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048. New york or San Francisco:
San Francisco
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CURRENTLY:
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049. Eating:
Air
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050. Drinking:
Saliva
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051. Wearing:
NOTHING
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nah.. just kiddin singlet and shorts actually
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052. Im about to:
go eat brunch
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053. Listening to:
TANK, fei ni muo shu
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FAVORITES :
054. Food:
lazy to type.. so many you must be outa your mind if you ask me type all of them
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055. Drinks:
copy paste (lazy to type.. so many you must be outa your mind if you ask me type all of them)
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056. Colors:
Black and ‘white or red’
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057. Numbers:
usually like the number 7
but really.. doesn’t really matter
just numbers.. unless you wana buy toto.. dun look at me.. I don’t gamble
cept’ on Chinese new year lol
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YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids:
Dad and Mom would kill me if I said no.. XD
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059. Want to get married:
duh..
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060. Life:
Ce La’Vie it is what it is.. fun!
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061. Goals:
Finish studying with the best results I can get while sharing the good and the bad times with ‘da’ pet hamster oops.. lolx
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062. Where will you live:
where ever God sends me (again very nicely answered by MayLinDa)
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063. Buy a house:
-.- U want me to bum off my parents? ….. sure!
Nah.. ofcourse I want a house once I can afford it la
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064. Buy a car:
Newest Beetle Bentley!
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YOUR PARENTS :

066. Love your mom?:
duh
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067. Love your dad?:
duhh
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068. Are they still together?:
duhhhh
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.
Skip to question 75 since all my answers are both
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WHICH IS BETTER? :

068. Lips or eyes:
069. Hugs or kisses:
070. Shorter or Taller:
071. Lean or plump:
072. Romantic or spontaneous:
073 . Nice stomach or nice arms:
074 . Sensitive or loud:
.
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075 . Hook-ups or relationships:
’long long long long long till I can’t wake up anymore’ lasting relationships
.
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HAVE YOU EVER :

076. Bungee-jumped:
nope
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077. Shook hands with someone important:
yeah most of the Kelabits are super people..

not including me la XD

lolz if you don't know who

one example.. Dato'Sri Idris Jala :p

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078. Kissed a stranger:
nope
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079. Drank bubbles:
yeah.. soap bubbes to be precise.. wanted to try what they tasted like.. regretted doing that afterwards..
Haven had fizzy bubbles for like 2 weeks now.. preparing tummy for Chinese new year :p
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080. Lost glasses/contacts:
yeah tons of times herm.. where did I leave my glasses this morning.. X.x
..

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081. Ran away from home:
wanted to when I was young and dumb..
I used to pack my stuff into plastic bags when I got so pissed with my parents
lol
That was when I was 12 mind you..
..

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082. Liked someone younger:
yup
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083. Older:
eherm.. not that old la.. still very young but she thinks she acts like lau ah ma.. lol
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084. Broken someone’s heart:
T.T sad to say.. yes
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085. Been arrested:
yeah been arrested by my parents when I sneaked out of the study room to watch cartoons

got handcuffed (locked) in the study room afterwards..

(happened during UPSR) lol
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086. Turned someone down:
....yes
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087. Cried when someone died:
....yes
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088. Liked a friend:
I like all my friends
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DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself:
I’m superman! <--- these words speak for themselves XD
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090. Miracles:
ofcourse experienced some myself.. like being born
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091. Love at first sight:
nope.. I believe in love at every sight.. (towards the same person la ofcourse)
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092. Heaven:
yeah
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093. Santa clause:
wanted to… found out it was my dad… haih
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094. Sex on the first date:
nope
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095. the more you hate, the more you love:
nope the more you care the more you love

unless you mean it like..

da dai biao ten

ma dai baio guan xing

hen dai biao?

eherm..
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096. Angels:
yesh.. angels both sent by God and ..ding ding lolx
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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?:
even though gona see you later.. still.. yesh
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098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?:
no way..
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099. Do you believe in God?:
ofcourse la duh
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100. Will you tag 10 people to continue this game:
yeah.. I will..
You handsome boy! And you pretty gurl!

And you! duno boy or gurl XD..
And the next you! That comes by..
See.. all done :p

~~Have a nice day~~ :)

(: superhellokittyman! :)

2009-01-15T12:07:00.004+08:00

!~YaY~!

it's finally time for the holidays!!

has everyone had their holidays planed out yet?

2 months.. is a long long time XD

but before you know it, It'll all be over soon

so lets enjoy the current moment to it's fullest

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~HaPPy HoLidaYs Ya'LL~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

O.O ..do not try this on the road..

ps- drive carefully yeah

gone with the winds the summer breeze

on with the boredom on salty seas

unlike times of last, say no to worries

cuz' with you the smiles, they never cease

let me make you happy :)

..hen xing fu.. oops I 'eamn' ... su fu.. Xp

2009-01-09T10:46:00.003+08:00

drowsy

Feeling tired..

Beklager sin været svært at vågne op af de sidste par dage ..

All the best for exams, I truly believe you can do it
Cuz your extra ‘te bie’ LoL

Lalalala~

2009-01-09T00:43:00.008+08:00

Answering in

~Silence~

You ask, why I don't seem as happy,

that I used to smile more,

..it's because..

when you're around,

I smile so much to myself my cheeks hurt ;-)

so.. quietly.. my heart smiles for me..

You have made

*each day*, so much more brighter

and

*each moment*, so much more.. unforgettable

it's priceless

(: ~*Thank yoU*~ :)

2009-01-05T20:32:00.004+08:00

wooo! I'm nuts now.. cuz.. ,

I'm on Meds!
,

It's weird really, have not been on any sort of medication for 2 years ++ now

forgoten the feeling of being a needy T.T

,
,

Reason:
,

I've got this bad rash around the **** area lolz

yes.. 'that' area... sobs..

come let me show you a picture..
..

you ready?

really?

close your eyes if you're shy

!warning!

~~since I pity you I decided not to show lah Xp~~

~~(scratch scratch)~~

bored so I'll just ramble on some more..

,
,
,

Bad News:

bad news is (quote) 'insomnia' ~.~ can't get enough sleep due to the crazy itching... argh...

so during the day I may look a little like a walking zombie oooo... grrrr... rrrraarrr...

~~(trying to make scary noises)~~

Good News

good news is.... less house work for me! Yay!

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yeah guess I'd better get back to my reading =.=
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2 more weeks before the long school break yeah!
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cheer up people!

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ah! itchy!...

(scratch scratch)

a....much better.. XD
,

ew.. I'd better go put some cream on that

(: chaos'! :)

2009-01-01T02:27:00.006+08:00

~within an extension of half an hour~

Thought I'd pluck something out of the internet

but then again something written with your own hand would carry more meaning

so here it is

from

...me to you..

Comfort in Words

""""""""""""""""""""

When the days are dark and your tomorrows seem not to come

I am here for you with my little torchlight, a few candles and a comforting arm

When the winter chills prove too much, and the hours just too long

Take my coat, because your warmth is all that’s needed for me to hold

.
When your phone is dead and you are feeling alone and insecure

Hold it close because in my mind I am always sending words for sure

Let not them dreams scare you, because you have the will to change them

If will you have not, then hold me close I will stay awake so you could dream

.
When times of trouble shall befall those pure in heart

Do not waver, say a little prayer and snuggle up

Close your eyes, reach out, and take my hand

Cuz on the other side I am doing the same

..I'm not movin..

..Cuz there's someone I'm waiting for..

..so I'm not moving..

Gona camp in my sleeping bag cuz

I'm

..not gona move..

~smiles faintly~

2008-12-29T22:20:00.006+08:00

~THANKFUL~

~ lalalalala~

Was surfing the web when I came across a bible verse:

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus."

(1 Thess. 5:16-18)

and Realised that,

I have not been fully appreciating all the things I'm blessed with :

being blessed with a loving family

being granted a place in Swinburne under scholarship

being surrounded by wonderful people as friends

being able to play my guitar when I'm emo

being able to live life comfortably

being able to feel this way for you

:-)

........

Thank you guys for being there

Thank You Jesus for allowing the hurricanes,

because it makes the sunny days that come after,

all the more beautiful

and your lessons for me all the more amazing

If you're feeling down right now,

it's okay the dawn you have been waiting for is just around the corner

just don't let go when you're taking that last bent

!hold on! :)

here's a link if you feel you need a (bible verse) read on gratefulness

~God Bless always~

(: ~smiles~ :)

sshhhhh....

lalalalala

2008-12-29T01:10:00.004+08:00

This puzzle is called Lateral Thinking .

Scroll down slowly and be honest to yourself.

Think like a wizard . . .

just think outside the box lol

don't listen to this guy XD

man

1. ------------

board

Ans. = man overboard

Okay, let's see if you've got the hang of it.

stand

2. ------------

Ans. = I understand

OK . . . Got the drift ?

Let's try a few now and see how you fare ?

3. /r/e/a/d/i/n/g/

Ans. = reading between the lines

4. r

road

Ans. = cross road

Not having a good day now, are you ?

Redeem yourself.

5. cycle cycle cycle

Ans. = tricycle

Not easy to figure out ha!

6. ------------

M.D.

Ph.D.

Ans. = two degrees below zero

C'mon give it a little thought ! !

7. knee

light

Ans. = neon light ( knee - on - light )

U can prove u r smart by getting this one.

ground

8. ---------------

feet feet feet feet feet feet

Ans. = six feet underground

Oh no, not again ! !

9. he's X himself

Ans. = he's by himself

Now u messing up big time.

10. ecnalg

Ans = backward glance

Not even close ! !

11. death ..... life

Ans. = life after death

Okay last chance

12. THINK

Ans: = think big ! !

And the last one is real fundoo - - -

13. ababaaabbbbaaaabbbbababaabbaaabbbb...

Ans: = long time no 'C'

laalalalalala

did you get any right?

personally I only got 3/4 right... XD

2008-12-28T02:26:00.004+08:00

emotions

..................................................................................................................................

Dwindling words
……...
…...
....
..

Our minor misunderstandings hurt me more than you’d know
That is why; I’ve decided that goodbye would be the best
Every time, you confuse, you tease, then leave
Try as I might, to ignore, I feel I’m dying.. slowly... inside..

This feeling it hurts me so, my heart’s falling apart
But though like thorns it pricks, I welcome the feeling
Maybe that is why I should have just quit from the start
Before to you my conscience started, slowly pulling

I wanted to let you know but you somehow changed my mind
I know fair it isn’t to make my own conclusions
But I’ll only bring more hurt and more confusions
To you, I tell, this is my final decision

For you it may be just another joke
For me its part of a bigger picture
I’ve tried to hold on; I’ve tried to have fun
Playing your little game, But everything’s the same
As it was back then
You broke me again

So here I’ll remain, a bystander

Watching from the distance
Praying for your happiness
Happiness that I thought I once had

I don't wana hurt you, or me

so
I’m sorry but this is.. Goodbye

..........................................................................................................................................

don't misunderstand lol just felt emo that's all...

emotions

2008-12-25T06:03:00.007+08:00

In the Spring to?

~~Shop for Arvin's Dad's Christmas present!~~

where is it.. hm..

ooo... visitors from Doulos! cheese!

yesh dat pose was kinda lame.. I think I scared the little kids who were walking by.. XD

btw "some people" our colourful friend here only wana see "some other people "not "some people" lolz

oo met DunDun so chun he's posing here so I took a picture..

Arvineee... and... Kim, oops! xP

he's posing here too so I took another picture

Masao!

oh another poser..
snap!

wow this guy too much la.. but still, give him face la snap anyway..

!!THEN!!

we were shopping halfway when we heard squeek squeek...

(turns.. ei? no one around.. continues walking..)

squeek squeek

(turns... quiet,,, walks)

squeek squeek

creeepy..

!squueeek!

.
.

Gotcha!... huh?

=.=

so small no wonder she hides so well lolz

~wearing pink squeeky shoes sumore~

the

..hunt..

continues

suai ger here hehe

..finally done..

herm.. have I bought enough to get 10 free vouchers?

zzzz ..tired.. zzzz

that's it for Holiday shopping!

no shopping for me this season

!!but it's still fun though woooot!!

2008-12-25T03:31:00.013+08:00

~~Christmas Eve~~

wooot! .. finally can show off my own Xmas Tree!! hehe

.....

~Evening~

Cleaning up for Christmas!

this was what what Christmas Eve was like this year for us

=.= can't believe I skiped classes for this LoL

won't be posting any pics of us doing any work in it

~~(partly because I was slacking most of the time wakakaka.. shhhhhh don't tell my parents)~~
xP

(red faced)
diligent oh!

whoa this thing is SOOoooo... Heavy (puff puff)

actually just posing there nia lol

oops this explains alot lolx, T.T bullied by dad and mom ish..

this is what happens to lazy people who don't do work!

poke 'em poke 'em.. U go sis!! Muahahaha

looks like dad just can't wait anymore hekhek

finally a hearty meal to conclude the evening ^^

.................................

~Nights Activites~

Then it's to the movies with our highschool friends!!

we watched

well for the first 10 minutes of the movie..

I thought we were watching I.P man... seriously can't believe I fell for it Clarence xP

......

then we went to The Spring for the Christmas countdown!

and McDs for supper!

......

finally home woo... too bad 'some people' could'nt make it lolz pity pity

then there's Christmas presents to unwrap!!

tadaaa....

what's in the bag? well that's for me to find out later, and you to guess xP
~Thank You for the Presents~

~Meimei, Jessica and Clarence, oh and dad-mom too lolx~

!! ^^ !!

cant wait! I'm wiggling in my seat now

,,'',,''(wiggles wiggles)'',,'',,

sooory can't do the same for you... am currently sadly broke due to 'SOME' earlier INCIDENCEs

I'll be both smilling and frowning tonight ---> : #

2008-12-23T05:27:00.006+08:00

.
.

Have you thought of what you would like for Christmas?

I'm only wishing for

..a peaceful, relaxing day with good company :)..

.

.
.

Hope all of us get to
.

.
~Enjoy Christmas~

2008-12-21T02:39:00.012+08:00

ohkay, like I promised, here's the explanation:

today had been a very emo day... (breeeeaaak.... eeeek, tire screeching) wait!! First, here are some pics to show the mood...

(I reccomend you play OneRepublic-Mercy/ Cai Hung-Jay Chow at the side bar)

I felt heartache...

Felt cheap...

Felt broken..

Felt thrown away.....

I guess I just awoke on the wrong side of the bed today...
it was late,(1.30pm) and it was a busy day ahead...

everything was so

hectic, jumbled up schedules,

(this was due to bad time management from the previous week)

stressing, uncompleted assignments,

(our project had little heading through the discussion)

emotional, quarreled with some of my family members,

(was quite a big one)

it was because of me..

then

I had 4 appointments happening at the same time O.O

so a decision had to be made...

I'm sorry guys for letting you down :( it was my bad...

fast forward 7 hours...

.
.

I'm here

finally managed to get everything settled, glad everything worked out well...

we managed to go sight seeing at a number of places in town..

including a Christmas parade by the churches in Kuching,

mei, that was why I was quiet just now

(had a few things to contemplate)

now, here is the interesting part of it all..
home finally came again, it was all normal routine...

but today, someone, I'll nickname him 'CD' got me to 'confess'... yesh '''confess'''

I don't usually break so easily but this time it was all spontaneous..

maybe it was because of today's happenings

the words came out without end...

It was so.... nerve wrenching.... it was like my throat was so heavy I could not speak

(fortunately my hands did the talking)

'CD' was particularly close with a girl I fancy

it was about her, so you could imagine my dilemma

he questioned my

truthfulness

loyalty

trust

and finally..

my heart

did not feel like the end was anywhere near, the answers were so far

but in the end...

..I got it right..

O.O

well we exchanged problems, he on the other hand had quite a ways to go..

I truly wish him all the best..

after today.. I've found a new brother to confide in

and after that, I came online and I found your lovely comments,

****now for the stars****

~Alan~

~Meimei~

~Mellow~

~ Ash~

~Steff~

~Wanie~

even though it was small talk

was really enlightening ^^

thanks for making my day :)

sometimes you can't avoid the storm that lies ahead

.....

but do not waiver because sometimes you only need to hold on long enough

to see the beautiful day ahead

~~ smiles ~~
... (: together lets :) ...

thanks for reading~! ^^

2008-12-19T05:09:00.007+08:00

: )

~~Not so~~ long ago 'some people' questioned,~~complained~~ about 'updates' so here it is,

Just finished writing this song, hope you get what it means ^^

enjoy reading

~here goes (with guitar)~

My Unfinished Heart

1st
If now I could without the words,
Describe the pain, the sorrow, the hurts,
That bring me down lower than dirt
Then that I shall though ignored, not heard

2nd
Within the noises that drown my voice
That label on all I own, a price
Above the things that force my choice
To turn my heart as cold as ice

Bridge
I’m sorry because perfect I’m not
But for you I tried and hard I fought
Till the last breath, only you I thought
I was close but I now know not

Chorus
The complete side of my other part
The feeling of us at a brand new start
The fairy tail ending from me depart
The complete picture of my broken heart

repeats 1st, 2nd

Chorus

The complete side of my other part
The feeling of us at a brand new start
The fairy tail ending from me depart
The complete picture of my unfinished heart

~END~

...tadaa...

what d'ya think ? :)

oh and ps-'some people' you better be contented lolx

2008-12-18T21:59:00.003+08:00

Posting for the four friends below :)

(Taged by, in order): ~MayLinDa, Meimei, Stefy & Audrey~

Rules :

- Pick your birth month .

- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .

- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .

- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .

- Tag 10 people ( feel free to do it yeah ^^)

January.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

February.

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

March.

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

April.

Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

May.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attract others and love attention. Deep feelings.Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

June.

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness . Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. S.E.N.S.I.T.I.V.E. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

July.

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August.

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

September...

Suave and comproMising. Careful, cautious ~~and o~~r~~ganized.~~ Likes ~~to point out~~ people~~'s mistakes~~. ~~Likes to criticize.~~ Stubborn. Quiet ~~but able to talk well~~. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal ~~but not~~ always honest. ~~Does wo~~r~~k well. Ver~~y confident. Sensitive. ~~Good memory.~~ C~~lever and~~ knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. har~~dly~~ shows emotions. tends to bottle up feelings. ~~Very~~ choosy, ~~especially~~ in relationships. ~~Syste~~ma~~tic.~~ (S) .. ;p

Got the encoded message? :)

October.

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often . Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer . Opinionated. Does not care of what others think . Emotional. Decisive . Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children

November.

Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

December.

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

2008-12-16T03:27:00.007+08:00

yawn.. uh.. what?... what just happened?

(sneezes)... juz woke up.. guess why?

about 20 minutes ago some crazy 'Mat Rempits' decided to target the local neighbourhood with some apparently 'not so funny acts..'

no, no, no~!

was ~busy~ sleeping when I heard a LOUD bang outside, the ~sound that car crashes make~ then some girl , yelling fanatically...screaming tolong tolong.. and it repeated about 3 times.. 'O.O'

scary huh.. it was so surreal I thought I was

having a bad dream...

went and peeked through the window and guess what I saw~~ 2 guys outside on motorbike... one holding a Radio and the other screaming like - an 'out of her mind' girl.... =.="' sweat...

was too blur to scream any curses that time.. can't believe I was genuinely concerned.. LoL, too bad I cant say the same for some of my neighbours, some of the 'younger parents' were so pissed they were like shouting at the boys who ofcourse fled the scene as soon as it looked like a mob was gona form XD

yeah just thought I'd blog about this.. gona start studying at 4.30am.. Lord help us all with moral studies T.T

now for some supper-cum-breakfast..

~early morning smiles~

Just a thought.. what would NATIVE mat rempits look like on the road?

ooo sexy.. LoL just joking

~!~all the best for moral studies swinny students~!~

2008-12-14T15:22:00.006+08:00

Taged by: Ka Huo, Meimei and JeSs

so happens all three of them like the colour: PuRpLe

1) How old will you turn in 2009?

~ 1 x 19 - 23 + 4 + 19 = ?

2) Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?

~ You mean I can't love my mom and dad at the same time? only one? ish.. what is this..

~ In terms of a relationship partner, ofcourse ONE person for a long long time lo

3) Would you date someone 8 years older than you?

~ I don't see age as an obstacle but... I guess if your 27 and you look like someone who's 18 then

okay la XD

4) When was the last time you laughed?

~ am laughin now haha -- the kids here are drivin me nutts

5) What were you doing at 4am this morning?

~ Reading and writing

6) What's your relationship with the person you last texted?

~ someone I fancy, hehe

7) What did you do today?

~It's Sunday I went to church,,, then spring,,, then out for lunch,,,

8) Who do you really want to see right now?

~ My pet dogie, buhuhu I miss him so much

9) Will your next kiss be a mistake?

~Well if I kissed someone and say its an accident will it count? LoL just joking

10) Who's your last missed call?

~ Ash.. forgot he's in manila.. international call... my credit.. haha relax ash, kacau u nia ;p

11) What's something you really want right now?

~ herm... a new phone!

12) What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

~ Josh, wake up!

~ groan... five more minutes mom....

13) Would you go back in time if you had the chance?

~ Nope, don't need to, no regrets! :)

... well, theres this one time I wanted to last a little longer ehehe...

14) What is something you need to go shopping for?

~ like... everything?

15) Do you want kids?

~ 2 the most... my dad says that's too little.. O.O

16) Are you in love with anyone?

~Is a crush counted?

17) How's your heart lately?

~ It's okay I guess, since its still beating

18) When was the last time you slept on the floor?

~ yesterday? while watching tv... was sooo sleeepy

19) Is your phone close to you?

~ Nope my phone was stolen.. T.T using my sis's Pda now

20) What is bothering you right now?

~ I just killed it.. muahahaha... problem solved, oh i meant a mosquito XD

21) Where are you right now?

~ In another world with colourful ponies and flying hippoees... yeap home's full of surprises

22) Don't quite know why but when I got this tag from Ka huo, Meimei and Jess this question was missing =.=

23) Do you like country music?

~ What de.. yeap ^^

24) Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?

~ my mom told me to always do so! so... yeah

25) How is your hair styled right now?

~ like a chicken

26) Do you like your first name?

~ I'm happy with it

27) Last thing you drank?

~ Mango juice

28) Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?

~ yeah all the time when I think no ones around, oh in the bathroom too~

29) What did you do 15 minutes ago?

~ I.. typed

30) Do you think you are a good person?

~ would you believe me if I said I was? guess not ;p

31) The sweetest person in your life?

~ the candy man!

32) The closest male to you now?

~ My Bro is sitting behind me watching TV

33) The person you're chatting with now?

~ Talking to some of the kids, from church (they're trying to read what I'm typing lol)

34) The languages you are able to speak?

~ Aren't English, Chinese and BM all the languages already? awww shucks...

35) The last person whom you screwed?

~ urm... I screwed my car tires while changing them.. btw I'm so dead if I go around "screwing" people, my parents will likely chase me with pitchforks and nail me to a stake.. x_x

36) One word about your life now?

~ IWouldn'tHaveItAnyOtherWay

37) Where do you wish to work?

~ In a place where I can sit on my ass watching football and playing my guitar while earning millions,,, hey! you said 'wish'

38) What are you specially good at?

~ U know what I'm good at? at bumming, I have been bumming off my parents for eighteen years now and they have not even realised it yet, how PRO is DAT?

39) Would you date someone older than you?

~ whats wrong with that? but not toooo old ohkaay..

40) Who are you to yourself?

~ I am superduperkalafragalistic..... uh.....

me: Hi, my names Joshua,

myself: oh hi I'm Joshua too..

41) Do you forgive people easily?

~ too easily

42) Which boy is precious to you now?

~ urm I'm starting to feel these questions are gay...

43) Your dressing style?

~ Always the wrong attire for the occasion, until my sis puts her opinion in

44) How different are you from other boys?

~ wait a... check check oo.. a..... oh! not so different I guess

45) The bad point in yourself?

~ bad point IN myself? lemme check again... dig dig.. ewwww.... Xp

46) The last contact in your hp?

~ phone got stolen so.. not too sure.. I think its Zelt~Kueh

47) Your favourite song(s)?

~ usually songs I can play on my guitar, 'collide' and 'I'm yours' to name a few

48) The two hated contacts in your hp?

~ why would I have the contacts of people I hate?

49) Learn one language in 10 days?

~ sure... 20 days later,, uh can i have an extension?

50) One gorgeous girl you came across?

~ oo I know this girl from New Zealand, Larissa, but sorry guys shes taken. Plus, I bet shes taller than ALL of you, trust me.. you don't want to stand next to her even though shes pretty XD

51) Whose your biggest enemy?

~ Don't think I have any BIG enemies right now

52) Which gang(s) do you support?

~ The Silver Knights and the Putt-putt gang

53) Proper age to join gang?

~ Ask the leaders lor, they decide. haiyo like that also don't know... Nuub

54) Do you like people who smoke?

~ Like them or their smoking habit? I don't have any problems with smokers but personally I BehDaHan cigarette smoke

no offence again ash lol

55) What do you think about modeling?

~ Cool

56) Given a chance, would you like to be a model?

~ whoa that's a rather far fetched dream

57) Whose approval do you usually seek first?

~ My parents but usually I just sneak out... hehe naughty naughty

58) What do you wish to be in future?

~ superman! you said wish... again

If you're rather free right now then your taged~!

2008-12-13T12:44:00.010+08:00

~my baby is sick buhuhu~

Wokeup after the MPYO concert yesterday :

well, was happily enjoying the morning when my mom called me over.... guess what....

I... I mean my mom... I mean... my neighbour, told my mom who then told me that 2 of the

tires on my car were punctured... great... -.="'

my dad wasnt too happy about it when he found out, first question he asked when he got back

____________________________________________________________________

dad: what were you doing yesterday? look at this, look~!

me: ~huh?~.... ya I can see that (looks)

dad: someone must not be happy with the way you acted in public because when 2 tires are punctured on a particular side of the car then it usually means someone did it on purpose

me: 'O.O' oh...kaaay....

dad: you beta

me: ya ya I'll change the tires... =.="'
____________________________________________________________________

-your telling me I have a hate club now? -.-"'

...how could this happen to me...~simple plan

one more tire to go

isnt my car sexy? >.<

sobs... Ill miss the 3 of you...

To the workshop and away...

check check.. oh we're finally here..

helloo friend ~dad says he knows people here~

hunting for new tires ~actually hes posing there~ LoL

dad's 'friend' patching up one of the tires

saw someone in the previous pic staring at the rims so I thought I'd take a picture of it

well altogether the 2 new tires cost me somewhere around 440? after bargaining that is

ouch...

stuck..

now I'll be tight on my budget this Christmas buhuhuhu...

T.T

Don't get the wrong impression though.. I still do not regret going for the MPYO yesterday ^^

a'ites I'ma gona get sumthin to eat tummy goin ~grumble grumble~

Hope all of you enjoy your week XD

2008-12-13T08:01:00.006+08:00

wiu.. been playing guitar since 6 this mornin, was kinda sleepy after I got back yesterday peng straight after i got back >.<

A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence. ~Leopold Stokowski

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Yesterday was the MPYO concert and whoa the orchestra performance was truly amazing..

oh and the company was fun too, two 'leng loi' what more can you ask for..three? lolx

now now don't be greedy..

Too bad pictures were not allowed to be taken in the Dewan Undangan Negeri so you'll just have to imagine the grand scene for yourself. Well, I could tell you how it felt though, imagine if you could listen to music so good you could taste it lol

It was a suitable conclusion to ~yesterday~ was a rather relaxin day

!~thanks to JeSSica and Jong meimei for the company~!

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Music is the wine which inspires one to new generative processes, and I am Bacchus who presses out this glorious wine for mankind and makes them spiritually drunken. ~Ludwig van Beethoven

well just needed to update since 'people' start complaining liaw ish..

2008-12-08T04:43:00.021+08:00

What came before:
After the days activities, it was finally time to have some comfort and relaxation. What Rachel and me had in mind was to get all the preparations done for the SMK Stampin St.John annual dinner then enjoy the dinner.. what we got however was rather different... XD

What came:
Dress code for today was formal, "I knew this the hard way since my sis had me run back to my closet after I put on a pair of jeans, hmph"
Venue: Banquet, Arang Road
Supposed time start: 7.00 pm
Actual time start: 7.45 pm
Organisers: St John Ambulance Sarawak Group No 41

Thanks to Kueh Mei Lin and Mr Tan for some of the pics below! :)

Blueberry flavoured cake! yum yum

the Juniors dedicating a song

The pianist in action!

Here I am (below) performing with my girlfriend (my guitar), guess what, I totally screwed the second song up LoL, Finding it quite funny now that I think back, did not know why but I was feeling unusually nervous that time.. was it because of all the leng loi looking? Hehehe..

Gud ol rachel helpin me with the mic stand

They're singing 'when you say nothing at all' by Ronan Keating

it was soooo funny, Johny ended up hogin the mic LoL

the operating table

... scissors please... blade please... tissue please...

Madam Lee and her Boboy, don't play play oh! he was the prom King for the dinner!

Respect him lor!

the 'It' crowd

Sitting with Kuching town and Chung Hua no.1 people here, leng loi is just opposite me hehehe,
we managed to swap pictures with our new friends, ehermherm..
hmm.. the photographer cut me out lo

Guessed he felt bad and took another ;p

my sis and her crazy table, they were busy being high whole night X.x

the lil st.John juniors! how cute ;p

The prom night candidates receving their 'right of passage' from rachel, I think they were tortured by her questions, kesiannye..

sorry ah yao and yun sen, no pics of you guys here >.<>

~.~"" What came after:
Just managed to get back to my PC after cleaningaround the house, we're having some Christmas carolers over later so our 'big boss and his madam' had us kids clean up to house, no questions asked! ish.. they all went to sleep earlier leaving 'somebody' alone cleaning up downstairs ish, it's already 5.30am and I'm so tired my legs almost popped off, think I should start charging them for my service ehehe

Aaron's spiderman hang toy

lets see what happens when you plop it to a ceiling fan.. hm...

lalalala, washing up

So.. this was they're "hardwork" while the kids were busy outside... I think dad is trying to reach for mom's hand, romantic nye LoL

dare to yawn somemore! x_X

It's Mr Spidy spinning round and round... wooo dizzy... dizzy...

2008-12-05T04:25:00.006+08:00

buhuhu....grrrr....lalalalalla~ I'll try to answer this in a not so senile manner, if you know what I mean...
Taaaged, oh well here goes:

8 people to tag:
(8 people? the lucky 8 people currently on my chatbox from top to bottom, haha pity you)
Nimai
Malvin
Bayu
Giovanni
Siu Mei
Hocan Lai
Ah Mei
Joycelyn

8 things I am passionate about:
God, Our Savior Lord Jesus
Reading fictional books
Playing my Guitar
Writing~Songs
PC gaming
Singing, in the bathroom
Hanging out with friends
~Sleeping?

8 things I say too often
Ohkaeeyy!…
Wad De!
Sweat =_-“’
‘hahaha’
Phat la you
Damn!
Ouch!~ hand motion stabbing to the heart
Hello!

8 movies I have watched recently
-Taken
-Madagascar 2: Escape to Africa
-Shrek 1,2,3 on DVD
-Tropic Thunder~ a lot of curse words here >.< -The Bourne supremacy, Bourne Identity and Bourne Ultimatum, the Bourne trilogy is like better than James Bond! No joke! -Quantum of Solace~ need I say more? -21 -Kuntilanak, Dan’s idea of an alternative movie, turns out this movie sucks and I’m being nice lol

8 songs that I can listen to over and over again
Love remains the same~ Gavin Rossdale
Come on get high ~ Matt Nathanson
Collide ~ Howie Day
8 become 1 ~ Norwegian Recycling
We’re so far away ~ Mae
I’m Yours ~ Jason Mraz
Go on girl ~ Ne-yo
Crush ~ David Archuleta

8 things I learned the past year
~I need to devote more time to God
~Everything will turn out just fine no matter how deep the hole you are in
~If I do my best now, no need for regrets later on even if failure is the outcome
~It’s hard to ever get bored of playing badminton and guitar
~I don’t really suck that bad in engineering maths after all >.< ~That I’m still a place for people to offload problems, not that I mind ~That I have the best set of friends a person could ask for! ~That I know I still don’t know much XD 8 places I like to go in Kuching
Gizmo Gamers
Peach Garden, we usually eat here after our gaming sessions
Kuching airport, to fly to KL
Swinburne Sarawak campus, this is where the “gang” meet before food hunting
Medan Pelita for movies
Winner's court or Swinburne Multi Purpose Hall for Badminton
Are all new food stalls counted?
No place like home ^.^

8 things that you will be doing today
As in my schedule for today:
~Blogging
~Dentist consultation appointment- on my way to getting bracers
~Breakfast
~Sleep after this, yes breakfast first then sleep ;p
~Badminton (edit)<- canceled Evening: ~Reading the book “Uglies by Scott Westerfeld” while I enjoy ‘tea’ ~Playing Guitar & song writing ~Relax (being a sloth for about 2 hours), yes I make time to do nothing XD 8 things I regret this past year:
my number one regret! ~I regret doing my best in WOW till my results suffered sobs sobs.. and more sobs
I regret .. urm,
I regret ..
I regret .. aarrr,
I regret ..
I regret .. hmm,
I regret ..
I regret .. don’t think I regret anything else 8)

2008-12-03T02:10:00.003+08:00

I DO NOT believe in this sorta stuff buuuut I found this interesting sooo what the heck..
thanks to Jessica Chan fer the email:~
It's supposed to be about zodiac signs, I hope this cheers you up a wee bit...

duno why but in the mail, virgo came first and it soooo happens that I'm a virgo ehehehe
VIRGO (The One that Waits)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.
.. yea my dad and mom love me and in our relationship I totally take advantage of them LOLz
and when I argue with them I so totally want the last say in things, naughty kid hor? ^^

SCORPIO (The Addict)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

herm.. I sorta know alot of scorpios who are not addicts..
if you count out T.V and computer... and sweet foods... and gaming consoles... and handphone text messaging and.....

LIBRA (The Lame One)
come on, everyone does lame stuff ones in a while.. like.. me for example
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you wanna mess with... You might end up crying ...

Josh: knock knock... Reply: whos there?

Josh: me.. Reply: me who?

Josh: mee maggie! HAHAHA...... ...... ...... no reply...

ARIES (The Liar)
.. come on everyone lies~ not including me muahahaha.. uhh.. I think I just lied..
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud..

AQUARIUS (Does It In The Water)
eherm eherm... it actually means swim...... in.... a pool..... of.... ... water.... get it? no? oh well..
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

GEMINI (Irresistible)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in the you know where ... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.
no! Angelina Jolie is more irresistable... oh wait shes Gemini too

LEO (The Lion)
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.
please refer to taurus, see the one below the one below the one below the one below .. -~>

CANCER (The Cutie)
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
Did you know that Cancer is considered a yin sign or is alternatively feminine? too bad 'cancer GUYS' according to this your a bit urm.. soft ;p (sourced from wiki)

PISCES (The Partner for Life)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but In a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
hard to keep, popular, center of attention? ha! playboys and playgurls! tsk tsk tsk

CAPRICORN (The Passionate Lover)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.
predict future? herm if this is true I'm so geting a capricorn friend <~~ apparently for the wrong intentions oops

TAURUS (The Tramp)
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!
so.. Taurussians and and Leonians are good kissers? but but, don't lions eat buffaloes? herm i don't get this stuff...

SAGITTARIUS (The Promiscuous One)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with, you might end up crying.

Amazing in I know where? where? I wana see!... wait! w.. wh... wha... what are you doing? nenene.. no! your not supposed to show that to me! ulala...... drools (naughty naughty hehe)

well do not take the above too seriously, this post is just for a little amusement :3

Have a nice day! ^^ V

2008-11-28T03:40:00.013+08:00

Wanna know what i was wasting my time on last holidays? It was on a new game release by Bethesda Softworks, trust me for those of you hardcore rpg gamers who would preper a lil shoot-em-up to spice things up a little, this is the game for you.

The above practically says it all, in this post I'll basically be yappin a little about Fallout 3 and nothing else, yes you heard me only about fallout 3.

Note that:

This post would be more suited for audiences with at least a minimal amount of ‘pc gaming’ interest, for all others who absolutely think gaming is a bore and a waste of time you might want to get a pillow ready just in case >.<

Also note that:

This post contains animated blood, violence and gore don't say i did not warn ya

Basic summary to this game:

(from gamespot.com)

Fallout 3 takes place in a bombed-out, futuristic version of Washington DC, and in the game, the area is bleak but oddly serene. Crumbling overpasses loom overhead and optimistic 1950's-style billboards advertise their products with sunny catchphrases. It looks impressive, and you move around the wide-open wasteland with nary a loading time, though you will encounter loads when entering and exiting buildings or quick-jumping to areas you've already visited. Numerous set-piece landmarks are particularly ominous, such as a giant aircraft carrier that serves as a self-contained city, or the decrepit interiors of the National Air and Space Museum. But the small touches are just as terrific, such as explosions that produce mushroom-like clouds of flame and smoke, evoking the nuclear tragedy at the heart of Fallout 3's concept.

Mr Gunts having some target practice

hey it's my in game pet 'Dogmeat'!

The local town zombies, there are some nice and friendly ones, though clearly these guys are obviously the not so nice and friendly ones

View fome a hilltop of rivet city, yes rivet city is an aircraft carrier

Video trailer showcasing the setting of the game, also includes a little of the gameplay

I like the background song for this video lolz, find it soothing

Thought I’d have some fun rambling about the life of my fallout 3 character through a first person context. (Borrowed this idea from one of the preview entries in gamespot.com)

Dear diary,
Living life on the capital wasteland is hard and tiring, food is scarce and stuff here are extremely expensive. After spending 4 months looking for dad through burnt rubble, traveling across the ruins of Washington D.C yelling ‘dad’’dad’’dad’ till the locals think I’m some nut job who isn’t old enough to look after himself ~

I’ve finally come to the conclusion that I need some time off to rest and recuperate, you know, like chill, hangout with the locals, get drunk at the local bar and take my dog out for a walk once in a while, but naawww, what do I get when I try to do something relaxing like take Dogmeat out for a peaceful and quiet walk?
I get giant scorpions, oversized mole rats, mutated bears, zombies, green monsters from who knows where, all sorts of mishaped creatures who apparently have nothing else to do but chase me all day long across the barren lands of nuked Washington D.C. Not that I mind all the attention they give me but it seems like the capital wasteland never seems to run out of creepy creatures to throw at me. You could be happily walking down the path, what’s left of it anyway, and next thing you know a group of local chums will decide they want your head for some lame contract, claiming someone else hired them to get rid of you, I mean what did I ever do to them?

I know, I know, I have had some rough times with the local people, did some things like stealing their food, killing their pets, blowing up their houses, smacking them on the head with a metal pipe just cuz I find the sound ‘that’ makes amusing, but come on that was yesterday. Today is a whole new day and grudges from past times should be forgotten... right?

Dear diary,
Well the end of the day I think all that is needed is for me to continue my search for long lost dad, he never did say goodbye before he left me all alone in that forsaken vault. Maybe then I’ll have someone who can really understand the hardships that life has brought and calm me down every time I go into a frenzied rage punching holes in everything around with my trusted mini machine gun. Though, sometimes I get this strange feeling like someone is purposefully making me do all this weird stuff just for the fun of it, and that this world is nothing but a game people can fiddle and play with…. Naah….. who am I joking….

View of the Washington Capitol Building in Fallout 3

Naughty green man 'before'

Naughty green man 'after'

A post won't be complete without a headshot!

ps-i know the guns are different but who cares? as long as the green guys resemble each other lolz

Mr Lucas says: "Have a nice day!"

Hope some of you gamers enjoyed this post!

2008-11-09T03:55:00.012+08:00

Written and sung by: Me & Melissa

Music by: yours truly

Title:Song for you

You are so far away
But your always close the heart
I need to find a way
cuz' I'll never let you go
Your voice, your whispers,

Echo in my ears
Close your eyes and listen,
just listen

Chorus:
I write this song for you
with the rhythm rhythm in my soul
I want to tell you
How much I miss you (miss you) so..

You are so far away
But your always close the heart
I need to find a way
cuz' I'll never let you go

Your voice, your whispers,
echo in my ears
Close your eyes and listen,
just listen

Bridge:
Hey baby, can you hear me calling you
Hey darlin', I really need you so...

Chorus:
I write this song for you
with the rhythm rhythm in my soul
I need to tell you
How much I miss you...

this is the Guy version: Melissa has the more feminine version on her blog

A little something about the song:

Besides the fact that both Mel and me ended up writing this song,

the sole purpose of the whole thing was to serenade the person we care about

for her it was her hubby

for me, ehem that's for me to know and you guys to find out

2008-11-09T03:33:00.009+08:00

It's my first post, Yay~!

Good thing is.. it's my first post! and I'm rather contented with it. there, showed you Mel <-- she said my blog (before the upgrade) was La meh 'lame' Lolx urm... well that is about all i can think of for the yay stuff, Now for the not so yay..... stuff

My all time expendable Nokia flip phone was stolen, yea it sucks but it was partly due to my carelessness. Now that its gone it doesnt really feel that expendable anymore T_T what is worse is that the next day, which was yesterday my Kia, Karens (my mom's technically) got bumped in by my not so careful neighbour. thats the second time within 6 months my car, i mean.. my moms car got hit, that'll cost me another 'walk to school if I'm late' week

So, thus far things i have achieved which did not make my parents too proud:

-Screwed my china made PDA (less than 5 months old) RM700+

-Fried my PC (less than 3 months old) RM1000+ repairs

-Bumped my car in an accident (less than 4 months driving) RM9000+ in repairs

-Got my phone stolen (took me less than 3 months for that one) RM300 gone

-Car got bumped into... again (still uncertain)

-now my parents are wondering whether i can be entrusted with my own car, after all that the likely hood is.... RM 30000+ lost a brand new car

I think my eyes are starting to bleed after calculating my expenditures within this six months..

Hm.. thought I was supposed to feel better after letting go of some of my problems... but somehow this doesn't seem to feel any better... oh well >.<

ps-sorry for the lack of images as proof, you just got to trust me on this one